Sunday, September 12

many things have happened to me these past few days...
i really dont know what to do anymore...
i cant even think of anything now...

what is the purpose of being alive..? why are we living in this world..?
to find happiness..? that's just bullshit......... we all gonna die anyway in the end... am i not right...?
just what is the purpose of all of these...? =(

i'm just so tired....
someone please tell me what to do......

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Saturday, September 11

i woke up so early today, 4:30am. couldnt really sleep.. maybe because of those thoughts i have in my head lately these days... tried to sleep again but i couldnt..
i didnt know what to do so i went downstairs to check the mailbox. i found a mcdonald flyer inside my mailbox with like 10 coupons of buy one get one free attached on it, then i realized that i havent eaten anything yesterday until that time...~_~ i dont remember what i did yesterday that made me forgot to eat<.< i was too lazy to cook anything so i thought i'd just wait till 7 or 8am for mcdonald to open.
so i went out at about 7:30.. the weather outside was exactly the kind of weather i like the most. it was not sunny, cloudy but not dark, and it was a little showery (not a heavy rain), it's cool not cold.. so it was perfect! i just love cloudy and showery day~♥
i had to walk about 4-5 blocks to get to the closest mcdonald from my place, ya its not very close, but its worth it to walk at this kind of weather. even now when it's close to winter, it still gets sunny a lot everyday, and i dont like sunshine-.- but i guess, however hot and sunny it gets here, everywhere else is still hotter and sunnier =p
i never really walked at that time in the morning before.. around where i live is usually always packed with people everywhere (well ya.. i live in downtown, what can i expect?-.-).. but there werent so many people when i was walking to mcd this morning, maybe cause its still kinda early, and its saturday so people tend to wake up later than usual?
er i dont know why i'm typing everything so detailed~_~ ..anyways, the point is.. i just felt so good walking outside this morning with that kind of weather and situation. i walked and looked around and realized.. how peaceful and beautiful vancouver is..
i'm not exaggerating it or something like that..
its just that.. i will never be able to experience this kinda feeling and situation in my home country..
and i'm just kinda sad to think that.. one day i might have to leave this place for good...


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Sunday, September 5

3:30am..

cant sleep... i tried-.-
oh well.. browsing through my harddrive... and i found these>.<:

miss them =x

talked on the phone with dad about an hour ago.. the usual stuff.. him telling me bunch of stuff he always do-.- oh he also told me about his eye still not getting better, he had this one sickness (i forget whats the name~_~) and it hit one of his eyes (i think its the left eye), and until now he still cant see clearly with that eye.. he went to 3 eye specialist doctors in singapore, they gave him some medication and stuff.. and i think it's been like 2 months (or longer?), but his eye is still not getting better =X ..yes i'm concerned! well of course, hes my dad afterall-.- and he spent so much already for the medicines and stuff.. so ya... hope you'll get better dad.. (´·ω·`)
and i really need to go back to bed.. its too late already, june's waiting for me on my bed so.. gnite!

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Saturday, September 4

@_@-)

just started my blog today! right now i'm still testing and working on a few stuff for the blog... so ya.. this first blog is just a testing =P
oh, let me put a starting pic of my baby^^~:

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